Life is Change

So in the last six months I have :

Moved my dad out of his home and into full time memory care.
Closed out his home
Found a rental for Nana and I
Sold the Condo
Closed out the storage unit
              and
Gotten sick three times

For the first time in six years I have all my stuff under one roof and have been sorting, deciding what to keep and what to get rid of.    I am trying to live with less stuff and am studiously ignoring the BBQ I bought among other things.  I find that moving living in a house involves things like lawn mowers and garden equipment.

BBQ, push mowers, weed wackers, and washer/dryer sets not withstanding, I am trying to get rid of stuff.  I am in a rental for a reason.  I want to rent my way around the world - at least some day I would like to.  I have a Pinterest Board dedicated to Travel Destinations.  Whether this will stay as a fantasy or become a reality is yet to play out.  In a weird convoluted kind of way this brings me to photography.  Since I am no longer the primary caregiver for my dad I am attempting to reinvent my life.  What do I want, what do I love, can I allow myself to do what I love?  I have often felt the only things worth doing were those that cured cancer, brought world peace, ended hunger, saved animals......you get the idea.

But I love photography.  I've always admired artists that were completely unambivalent about their art and the pursuit of their artistic vision.  Because I am ambivalent and uncomfortable about pursuing my own vision I decided that this is where the internal work is, where I need to push the boundaries.   Having shared these deep insights about the inner work being where you are most uncomfortable she responded with:  "Maybe it's just being uncomfortable"  She has a point.

This blog is still my view and opinions of life, the world, and things that irk me.   but I have created another blog for my forays into photography.  v johnston photography .  

My life is currently under construction please forgive the dust.