You Are All Going To Hate Me

Damn - I'm tired of being nice. I am in complete and open rebellion. Given that I am 53 and currently separated you would think I might have done this "late stage adolescent thing" some time ago. But noooooo........

What caused this late stage struggle - well it was when Jon (and yes, I am going to openly name the guilty) left the country and stopped the direct deposit pre-divorce spousal support before leaving, We spent 4 hours in Court this last Monday arguing about how much the pre-spousal support ought to be when in fact he had already cancelled it. So yes, you can financially outgun your spouse (me), you can run away and join the French Foreign Legion (OK, he actually moved to NZ to work in as a Senior Medical Officer -Emergency Care for the Manukau District Health Board) and you can basically tell the California Family Court System "bye-bye".

Did I mention that I am getting a divorce and that my future ex-husband is an emergency room doctor. We were married for 14 years. One of those more traditional marriages - and by the way I don't recommend them. Anyway the short version of the last 2 years goes something like this:

November 2006 I file for divorce
January 2007 reconciliation
November 2007 wake up on morning realizing I would rather be dead then stay married to Jon
December 2007 call attorney back - divorce is back on
February 2008 diagnosed with breast cancer - gee maybe I will get that chance to be dead rather than be married to Jon.

Rest of 2008 looks like this:
Surgery for cancer and all the medical dance that goes with that
2 other friends get diagnosed with cancer and die
First husband and father of my children dies
Dog dies
Divorce mediator dies of breast cancer (ok, this is hitting home)
My attorney becomes a judge, time to change attorneys for $25,000.00 that I don't have and borrow from the children's trust. Yes, the kids knew about it.
No money so living in the house with "separated spouse" - are we having fun yet?
Packing house
Some other stuff I can't remember - nasty year all around
December 2008 I move into my oldest daughter's Condo because I was finally awarded spousal support. She had moved in with her boyfriend (really nice fellow - I like him very much).

February 2009 clear mammogram
February 2009 adopt homeless cat that has thyroid problems (no, I didn't know this at the time)
March 2009 next dog dies
August 31, 2009 go to court and argue about a reduction in spousal support.
September 1, 2009 Jon leaves country and any pretense of paying support.

I think that pretty much covers it. In the mean time - I am scrambling to find a job - which is a whole different post. But you will partially hate me (see title to post) because I am going to allow ads on this blog - I know, but hey it might pay the light bill at some point.

So the real question is why did I start this blog today? Because Jon will absolutely hate it. His public and private persona are very different and I am tired of being nice.